Thank you for posting this. I have an iphone and ever since I placed the K-9 filter on my laptop, the YH switched gears on me and now I'm using my phone as a tool for lust. Yesterday and today I used it for that very purpose. I just can't seem to stop lusting. Ironically, that same phone has my GUE chizuk emails, Torah vorts and holy music and seifers on it (Torah, Sidddur, Tehilim, Tanya etc). I was thinking of blocking the safari browser all together, but I use it on a daily basis more for good than for bad. To block the internet, I find it a temporary fix, because eventually I will find some other means to lust, bypass it, and avoid actually trying to guard my eyes. The same thing happened with the k9 filter, where I figured out how to go around it. With my internet unprotected on my phone, I feel that its a huge test for me to keep my eyes clean and regain trust in myself and trust in Hashem. The only time I get attacked by the YH is when I'm alone with my phone and I get a foreign thought to surf some bad sites. You know, I feel very hypocritical to call myself frum (okay, I'm a BT) - but it feels weird to consider myself a religious Jew and yet watch these incident images and videos in my private time. I feel that I have lost the guilt feelings I used to have. I've damaged my connection to Hashem and tshuva seems like a temporary goal because I anyways fall. Huh! Even if I do conceptually have some really low degree of understanding of the spiritual damage I cause to myself, children, family, Hashem's divine plan etc., because of my lusting and flaw of the covenant, I am just a measly addict who is mastered by a
simple short lasting human passion.
The good thing is that its good to finally post something on the forum, as I was away from it for a long while. I wanted to add that I bought the book the "Light of Ephraim", and I really recommend it to everyone here on GUE it helps alot.
Im sorry I didn't stick to the topic. I just had so much to write and it just flowed out.
Thanks for reading.