It's been very long since I last came to the GYE website. I only thought to come here now after I was called to give a donation to GYE. I had found that some of the ideas that the pros were suggesting were too out of reach for me. I don't feel like I can come out with this issue to anyone. Certainly not my wife.
I had struggled with shmiras ainayim before internet, but clearly the internet is the worst part of the problem, ao that was the first thing that needed to be reversed. .
So I filtered my internet very tightly. No youtube. No news sites even such as Yeshiva World. I am basically only able to get email, financial things and similar. I made this known to my wife and family, but without saying that I ever fell with these things, only that I hold they are not appropriate for an ehrlicher Yid. My wife's computer does have more access but she knows that I therefore don't feel it's right for me to use her computer. I didn't see any clips of any recent events, not even the funeral of the queen of England. By my current way, I wouldn't even know what President Biden looks like. (Not that this would be triggering in any way
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) My family knows that I feel this is the right way. That's as far as the internet is concerned. As far as looking around outside, I now refuse to go with my wife to certain places which are pritzusdik, including certain types of shopping malls. I have made it known that I hold that these things are all inappropriate for an ehrlicher Yid.
In a nutshell, I have made an official presentation and statement of behaving these ways and that I hold to do differently is wrong, and so this is the new me.
I can't say that I'm perfect now, but it's a whole lot better.