now, i'm not the one to whom you asked this question.so dov, pardon me if i give my 2 cents.i just feel i HAVE to say my feelings. of course dov will have to answer for himself and tell me if i'm wrong.
ONCE AN ADDICT, always an addict.it might be discouraging, but them's the facts.r' guard tells the story of someone who was clean for 20 years, yes , twenty, and fell back in.it's like living with diabetes - you just have to know how to control it.
am i right dov?
p.s. you may ask: how can i have the chutspah to answer a question that was not directed towards me? the answer is that the gemara says that in the times of mashiach, chutspah will increase, so i'm just trying to bring the mashiach closer....