I want to share an idea that has been helping me a bit.

The idea of ירידה צורך עלייה in general is well known, that a fall can raise us to new heights not possible beforehand. When we learn from our mistakes they are the best tool to help us grow.

I think in this struggle the idea has a special meaning to us addicts.
One of the most basic (if not the most) parts of recovery is addmiting powerlessness to the addiction, when I'm left with only my own resources I'm bound sooner or later to succumb. Humility, humbleness, etc.
After a fall is the best tome to internalize the message - so much effort I concentrate into staying afloat, it's perhaps the most important focus of my avodah, and yet fall and fall again and again. Hey, I'm pretty hopless, I desperatly need Hashem's help. Hashem, help me!

Thank you for writing this MB. I only got this advice recently, but it seems really important, and I've been trying to wrap my head around it, and hoping it will get into my heart.

I agree with you, mefatfet. When one is nich'shal - in some convoluted way- it's a great chance to improve on your Anavah.

Kevin