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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 21 Sep 2011 20:05 #119850

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I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.
I don't want that trash ever again.

The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars.
If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look.
I can guard my eyes.
I want to guard my eyes.
I do guard my eyes.
Why do I say these four lines?
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 21 Sep 2011 20:39 #119867

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why?

see if you can put that on paper. It really helps.
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 21 Sep 2011 20:56 #119873

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Me neither. But we will always be free no matter what anyone says about nekudas habechirah, to plunge into the trash again and run far from Hashem as we can....which is of course not very far, thankfully.

But it certainly is a very long, lonely way down till I realized:

אָנָה, אֵלֵךְ מֵרוּחֶךָ;    וְאָנָה, מִפָּנֶיךָ אֶבְרָח. 7 Whither shall I go from Thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from Your face?

Hatzlocha, its just another day, isn't it....
Admin put these lines here cuz he likes 'em:
"The heart needs to be broken when will-power is not enough"
"Get off the 18-Wheeler and onto a tricycle!"
"The heck with me, what can I do for you?"
"I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons!"
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 21 Sep 2011 21:06 #119880

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heuni memass wrote on 21 Sep 2011 20:39:

why?

see if you can put that on paper. It really helps.

Start here www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=4473.0
The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars.
If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look.
I can guard my eyes.
I want to guard my eyes.
I do guard my eyes.
Why do I say these four lines?
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 22 Sep 2011 03:32 #119912

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Technically it's not paper... ;D :

Never mind. Nice job, chabeebebeebebebbweee
Admin put these lines here cuz he likes 'em:
"The heart needs to be broken when will-power is not enough"
"Get off the 18-Wheeler and onto a tricycle!"
"The heck with me, what can I do for you?"
"I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons!"
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 25 Sep 2011 22:53 #120275

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Shavuah Tov, chaver
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 26 Sep 2011 17:48 #120359

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Hello BB!

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 01 Oct 2011 19:49 #120687

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This is the first post of 5772!
I joined GYE in Elul 5770. I was clean for two weeks and I fell in the Beis Medrash on Shabbos Shuva while I was learning Zohar! This year I was sitting in the same seat learning Zohar with over 6 months clean from zera levatola. This is because of SA and TaPhSiC and a few other things all of which come from joining GYE.
I davenned for everyone who is or was connected with GYE on Rosh Hashono.


Wishing everyone a Gemar Chasima Tova.
The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars.
If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look.
I can guard my eyes.
I want to guard my eyes.
I do guard my eyes.
Why do I say these four lines?
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 01 Oct 2011 20:04 #120688

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Here is the second post of 5772. Who is going to post the 3rd?


I just got this email for 70 days without reading or viewing porn:
Hi Blind Beggar,
Congratulations on reaching level 6!
70 days is no small feat! On Sukkos in the Beis Hamikdash we brought 70sacrifices. You just brought your own 70 sacrifices!
It says in Chazal that a woman gives 70 cries before she gives birth. These70 days are like 70 cries that you just gave, to give birth to a NEW YOU!
In just 20 days you'll hit 90 and go on to the "Wall of Hashem'sHonor" chart. I'm looking forward to making a big Le'Chayim on thatday, and announcing a special Mazal Tov to you on the forum!Keep up your amazing work. You are giving Hashem agreat Nachas Ruach

You can get one too if you go 70 days.
Hatzlocho!
The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars.
If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look.
I can guard my eyes.
I want to guard my eyes.
I do guard my eyes.
Why do I say these four lines?
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 01 Oct 2011 21:25 #120691

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what a way to start a new year.
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 02 Oct 2011 00:21 #120694

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#4

congrats!
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 02 Oct 2011 10:27 #120722

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חזק ואמץ
keep up the good work!
ישראל אע"פ שחטא ישראל הוא
If you're connected above, you won't fall down below - Reb Shlomo
ולבי חלל בקרבי
לולא האמנתי לראות בטוב ה' בארץ חיים
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 03 Oct 2011 18:07 #120879

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great to hear the good stuff BB!
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
~Cordnoy

The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
~TZ
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 04 Oct 2011 02:43 #120953

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Blind Beggar wrote on 01 Oct 2011 20:04:

I just got this email for 70 days without reading or viewing porn:
Hi Blind Beggar,
Congratulations on reaching level 6!

I'm looking forward to making a big Le'Chayim on that day, and announcing a special Mazal Tov to you on the forum!


OK, so I sponsor a kiddush every year on my anniversary in the shul I daven in and say it is for gratitude to Hashem, but do not explain for what. My wife and the one or two other recovering sex and lust addicts in the shul are the only other ones who know, besides my Best Eternal Friend, G-d.

Make a real kiddush in your yeshivah or shul. Spend some cash on a simple weekly kiddush for three months, six months, a year, two years, three years - whatever it may be. Let it remain a secret between you and whoever, but make it real, I say.

Just a suggestion.


Continued hatzlocha!
Admin put these lines here cuz he likes 'em:
"The heart needs to be broken when will-power is not enough"
"Get off the 18-Wheeler and onto a tricycle!"
"The heck with me, what can I do for you?"
"I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons!"
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 04 Oct 2011 06:49 #120967

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Thank you, Dov.
For me posting on the Forum makes it real. Keep on making your annual kiddushes. We should all be at your next kiddush in the Beis Hamikdosh.
The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars.
If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look.
I can guard my eyes.
I want to guard my eyes.
I do guard my eyes.
Why do I say these four lines?
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