Hi Shlomo,
Thanks for the welcome (-:
I suppose, ultimately, I have to be open and honest with myself. Well, not even ultimately. Immediately!
I have no doubt, having access to a forum of such amazing Yidden, like you, striving to come closer to Hashem, will be a major part of the recovery.
I sincerely hope that I will be able to similarly support others in their recovery.
(PS - I am using this at work, cos my boss is on holiday! Ssh - don't tell anyone!)
NotGivingUpYetOldBean!