Dear members of the forum,
Well, the day came.
It was a typical day with no warning signs. My streak of 26 glorious and lofty days came to an end today, Sunday February 21, 2010 at 2:30 PM. I have accepted this day as a fall and that Hashem always has a person's best interest in His plans.
This site has definetely propelled me to heights higher than I ever could've imagined. 26 days is almost a whole month.
This is my first fall since joining the site on January 27, 2010. A proof of my progress is that after I had a fall today I did not feel as low as I have in the past after a fall. I felt level headed with a resolve to keep moving forward. As usual I came up with new commitments as I do after every fall. These commitments are to read the GYE handbook more carefully on a daily basis, to think about the possible nisyonos of the coming day before they occur and to try to tighten the reigns of what I look at each day during casual internet surfing.
I am motivated and excited to be patient and build a new clean streak so I can reach Pesach as a true ben chorin. My dream was to be a clean person through Purim but I guess Hashem had other plans. I will still have a freilichen Purim because by then I should have a new streak going and be mesilah baderech. I am also having a happy day because my new streak is starting right now.
Thanks for reading this post. What a great way to feel like I am part of a team over here. Looking forward to seeing my name back on the 90 day chart and I would like to thank Hashem at this time for everything.