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Re: Hi. My first post. 16 Jul 2025 03:17 #438985

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Welcome. Great to have you aboard!

Re: Hi. My first post. 17 Jul 2025 22:27 #439099

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yosefthetzadik wrote on 15 Jul 2025 23:26:
TY"H day 6 complete!

I just read like 10 full threads. Ima be honest. Im dead jealous. Im jealous of all the married folks and the emotional support from their wives. How much easier it makes the struggle. How much I crave for a deep emotional connection! 

These wives must be angles, supporting their husbands after confessions of the worst.

I never had an emotional connection with anyone. Not my mother who is sick, not my father who I didn't even know how he looks for 10 years. My emotions have committed suicide many many years ago. Now that I stopped all my numbing, (clean of P 9+ monthes, stopped a few other addictions lately too) oh, how I crave a deep emotional relationship!!! 

P.s. I hope Noone is able to identify me from this post. I held back from sharing more info due to those concerns...

Yosef - My heart goes out to you. I feel your pain. I've also had a very painful childhood (parents are divorced), though nothing compared to yours.
You are a real Tzaddik. The real thing. Hashem has his soldiers scattered around the world, and you are definitely one of them.
And one day you too will be zoiche to a wonderful wife with whom you'll be able to build a deep, emotional connection!! 
My favourite resources:
1. "זאת בריתי". hebrewbooks.org/56572 (PM me for a sharper version)
2. "שערי גדולה". hebrewbooks.org/48344
3.  guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation

My journey: Emunah struggles, Celebrating a fall, I'm fed up(main thread), I'm drowning, Tips for Shmiras Einayim.

Re: Hi. My first post. 22 Jul 2025 15:16 #439252

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I didn't post in a while.

TY"H for 13 days.

After some smooth sailing since day 4, a gift from Hashem that I did not deserve, the last 2 days were very hard. The easy times are over!

I had to fight very hard yesterday and today to stay clean.

All the tools and methods I used for the past 13 days don't seem to work anymore (Observing the urge, find the fox, pushy salesman). Any ideas?
If procrastination were a sport, I'd be the undisputed international champion!

Re: Hi. My first post. 22 Jul 2025 17:52 #439258

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hope your day is a bit easier.

have you tried talking with a mentor or a friend to get those urges to disappear?
Feel free to reach out abe.k1234@gmail.com or text 347-841-6794 (Google Voice)



Great free resources:

My favorite book for breaking free: The Battle of the Generation guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation">guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation. Change your attitude and change your life!

Re: Hi. My first post. 22 Jul 2025 18:07 #439259

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It has been a lot easier the past few hours. Thanks for your support. 

I've come to realize that I dont have any friends really. In yeshiva,  I don't connect to anyone really. My best friends are ranked by if I tell them good morning when I come in. I'm not sure what it's all about. But I think it's a mix of a couple of things. 1 I never have what to say or what to talk about, my life is pretty dull and uneventful. 2 I don't have patience to talk about nonsense that won't bring me any knowledge or information. 3 I'm scared of big judged, of sounding stupid, of coming off as desperate for connection. 4 I feel sometimes that people are not really introducing in me, they speak to me just to not make me feel like a nebech. 5 I lost my trust in the world, I hide my background from all my friends as much as possible, even my closest friends don't know nothing about me. 6 I'm always restless, I don't have the patience to build a meaningful relationship with a bucher, and definitely not taking in mind that we might part ways tomorrow. 

My day in social life in yeshiva basically boils down to a couple of 20 second conversations throughout the day. Usually a question about something/information that I need.
If procrastination were a sport, I'd be the undisputed international champion!

Re: Hi. My first post. 22 Jul 2025 18:11 #439260

thanks for your post , its really hard feelings , and i can relate in certain way , may hashem help us all

Re: Hi. My first post. 22 Jul 2025 18:28 #439262

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Wow, painful!!

Feel free to reach out i can try to offer you some Chizuk!!
Feel free to reach out abe.k1234@gmail.com or text 347-841-6794 (Google Voice)



Great free resources:

My favorite book for breaking free: The Battle of the Generation guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation">guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation. Change your attitude and change your life!
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