For the last week I have experienced a trough and crawled the rabbit holes I. The wrong way due to my aching knees my boredom at times at work and having too much time alone .I fam climbing my way out but it’s a day to day struggle 

WOW 4216!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what an inspiration!!!! that's almost 12 years!!!!!!!!!!!!! yikes!!!!!! it's powerful to see that your still never sure of yourself, wishing you continued growth!!!

I realize that when you go down the rabbit holes, you can hit a temporary bottom  but you can always pick up yourself up and move forward . Without GYE, I would be absolutely stuck in the rabbit hole. 

Like any sugya in Shas,every issue you face in life requires Chazarah. When you go down the rabbit hole as I have occasionally, I go back to His Final Mission by R D Avraham Twerski ZL ZYA, without whom none of us would be here and realize that focusing on my Dveikus BaHaShem is the Ikar. That is how I pick myself up from the mud when I go down a rabbit hole

I almost went down a rabbit hole today but I have pulled myself out and walked away from a potential trigger .BH for GYE ! 

I am emerging from a recent slip but not a fall I thank GYE for always keeping me headed in the right direction 

BH GYE is here I have had a tough week There are days when I like work and days when I want to retire as have many of contemporaries but that does not appear to be in the works. My CPAP functions but I always have to sleep on my back and I am fighting off a knee replacement with cortisone and gel shots and I am worried about my upper teeth which I had to replace after a terrible fall . I miss our eineklach who live out of town so I count down the days until we will see them again I am not tottering but i have to be more careful and avoid triggers if it all possible to avoid you g down a rat hole It is a daily battle but I know I can pick myself up and look ahead and not back because I have a wonderful Eshes Chayil and children and eineklach BH GYE exists so I can pour out my heart on these issues 

Wow I’m close to 200 days and while that’s impressive , it pales to what you’ve done! I basically read this whole thread and I’m beaming and tearing up. You’re such an inspiration ! Thank you!

I think and feel that I am crawling out of a downward spiral where I had been heading for the last week BH GYE has helped realize that I can pick up myself up before I go down the rabbit hole .