Back in 1969 when I was turning 19 I had a girl friend that was extremely inviting .
My parents and older brother manipulated me out of the relationship.
Then I became  “tag along “ to my brother in a high middah Avodah Zorah group . This almost stopped me from graduating college .
After having a beautiful relationship destroyed by an atheistic therapist ; fortunately my last lady friend got me to be a Baal Teshuva .
Unfortunately , porn is not just pictures . It can also be propaganda that can cause beautiful relationships to disintegrate .
Also , mistreatment of disabled and those who are achonronrei mishpachah of their immediate families can lead to many new difficulties.

Hi and welcome to the club
it's so sad to hear how you were treated
stick around here, you are in a good place
keep on rocking, you can do this!