ASHRECHA!!!
Incredible move to reach out as you are starting to feel the pressure -
I would say that the power of having that awareness - that something is pushing back - is so key that it cannot be overestimated!!!
To paraphrase Eli Nash - reach out and find a way to express that pent-up negative energy that is bouncing around inside you - it could by through writing or through talking to people. I have found the chat feature here to be so helpful. I just pop on and find someone I like to shmooze things out a little - does me wonders - it can help you both in expressing my feelings (pain, loneliness, fear, low self-confidence, stress etc) and in refocusing and really appreciating the incredible, inestimable, earth-shattering, historical, monumental and utterly incredible accomplishments YOU have achieved so far and continue to achieve!!!
Also - taking some time to read from The Battle of The Generation can also refresh the motivation and excitement to win this battle!
Here's a link if you've never seen it before:
guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation
If you notice me online - please say hi on the chat!