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Re: At a low point right now... 12 Jan 2023 13:52 #390801

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Good Morning 
Today is day 70 which is also the longest I’ve ever been clean for (since keeping records). 
BH, and halevai many many more days to come. 

Re: At a low point right now... 12 Jan 2023 14:36 #390802

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yud909 wrote on 12 Jan 2023 13:52:
Good Morning 
Today is day 70 which is also the longest I’ve ever been clean for (since keeping records). 
BH, and halevai many many more days to come. 

Mazal tov!! Keep going, my friend. We are all pulling for you to be successful like never before. 

Re: At a low point right now... 13 Jan 2023 12:29 #390832

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Keep it up tzaddik. 70 means that obviously this garbage is not necessary for happy living. You are BH "graduating". In reality there is no difference between 70 and 700. 
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Re: At a low point right now... 14 Jan 2023 19:57 #390851

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Hashem Help Me wrote on 13 Jan 2023 12:29:
In reality there is no difference between 70 and 700. 

Pls elaborate. I don't understand.

Re: At a low point right now... 15 Jan 2023 04:39 #390863

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excellence wrote on 14 Jan 2023 19:57:

Hashem Help Me wrote on 13 Jan 2023 12:29:
In reality there is no difference between 70 and 700. 

Pls elaborate. I don't understand.

I think what HHM means (please correct me if I’m wrong) is that if you can go 70 days clean then you can go 700 days. Someone might be addicted but can go a week or two clean and then revert back to his old ways so he might convince himself that he needs this. Once you get to a certain point, for example 70 days, it’s quite obvious that you don’t need it. In the last 70 days I’ve gone through all my typical cycles of life. Boredom and busy, inspired and blah, happy and sad, good shalom bayis day and bad shalom bayis day, good day at work and bad, etc. And through it all I’ve been able to survive (thrive actually) without reverting to shmutz. So at this point there’s no reason why I can’t get to 700 days. 

thats how I understood it at least 

Re: At a low point right now... 15 Jan 2023 08:18 #390872

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yud909 wrote on 15 Jan 2023 04:39:

excellence wrote on 14 Jan 2023 19:57:

Hashem Help Me wrote on 13 Jan 2023 12:29:
In reality there is no difference between 70 and 700. 

Pls elaborate. I don't understand.

I think what HHM means (please correct me if I’m wrong) is that if you can go 70 days clean then you can go 700 days. Someone might be addicted but can go a week or two clean and then revert back to his old ways so he might convince himself that he needs this. Once you get to a certain point, for example 70 days, it’s quite obvious that you don’t need it. In the last 70 days I’ve gone through all my typical cycles of life. Boredom and busy, inspired and blah, happy and sad, good shalom bayis day and bad shalom bayis day, good day at work and bad, etc. And through it all I’ve been able to survive (thrive actually) without reverting to shmutz. So at this point there’s no reason why I can’t get to 700 days. 

thats how I understood it at least 

Beautifully said, my friend. I think that is what he meant. If I may add, I don't think I know all of what HHM meant, אין אדם עומד על דעת רבו עד ארבעים שנה, but I think he also meant that when you ease into realizing that this is the life that you choose to live you can come to the point of comfort of knowing that 90 days is a goal that will help a person change some of his inner landscape, relieve some of the pressure of addiction, but in reality each and every day is it's own goal. When we work with the 90 day goal, if we fall we view ourselves as losers, we have nothing to show for our efforts. In reality, each and every minute is its own goal! We have to internalize that these struggles are a part of life, and even if we fall that does not take one iota away of whatever we have accomplished, those days that were clean are still ours. Especially like in you case, when a 70+ days have gone by, you've had ups and downs, and your here! BH! Now, this is life. Remain vigilant, don't become complacent, but know that you are now living life, in a healthy way, the correct way, and keep on trucking, one day at a time! Waiting for the update at 7000 days!
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Re: At a low point right now... 16 Jan 2023 22:17 #390920

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I’m not sure why it took so long for me to get the message but approximately 74 days ago, I was informed that I don’t work for (nor have I ever worked for) Gentech or any other filter company. 
Such a relief that I don’t need to constantly test out their system and make sure it actually works.   

anyone relate? 

Re: At a low point right now... 29 Jan 2023 16:31 #391362

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Just checking in with the oilam, BH going strong on day 87. 
This week will have challenges as I will have more free time then usual but Bezras Hashem I'll get through it unscathed. The goal is to read Battle of Generation daily (for this week). I've picked it up a few times in the past but never really read it for more than 2 days at at time, will try again.

Re: At a low point right now... 29 Jan 2023 19:53 #391367

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3 more days to 90!!
Wheres the party?!?! 
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/387630-Powerful!#387630

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Re: At a low point right now... 29 Jan 2023 20:36 #391370

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Very inspring!
What did you decide about booking the trip to E"Y

Re: At a low point right now... 29 Jan 2023 21:08 #391373

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yud909 wrote on 11 Dec 2022 18:09:

I don't believe I've mentioned this earlier but I do  watch movies, netflix etc. Very often at night for just 30 minutes to an hour to unwind but sometimes like on a long Motzei Shabbos ill watch for several hours. I try to stick to relatively clean stuff but that's obviously not so realistic. I was mekabel yesterday to not watch anything until after Chanukah. Which bezras Hashem I'll be able to stick to without too many issues. My dilemma is going forward after that. On one hand movies are often a trigger, even if not right away but they slowly plant the seed in my little head so they should seemingly be avoided at all costs. On the other hand I find that boredom is a much larger trigger for me and when I'm able to occupy myself with a relatively clean (relative to porn that it is, I'm well aware that a good ben Torah shouldn't watch 92% of what I watch) outlet, it's helpful.  As I said, I'm going to try it for the next 2 weeks and then take it from there. I don't think I'm ready to quit them completely yet but maybe just watch less and see how it goes. 
Any words of wisdom?

How did this work out?
What did you decide for the future?

Re: At a low point right now... 29 Jan 2023 21:29 #391377

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yud909 wrote on 29 Jan 2023 16:31:
Just checking in with the oilam, BH going strong on day 87. 
This week will have challenges as I will have more free time then usual but Bezras Hashem I'll get through it unscathed. The goal is to read Battle of Generation daily (for this week). I've picked it up a few times in the past but never really read it for more than 2 days at at time, will try again.

Wow! Keep trucking, my holy friend! It is very special to me to have you as a friend!
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Re: At a low point right now... 29 Jan 2023 22:52 #391385

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3 more days to 90!!
Wheres the party?!?! 



hmmm... have to get there first....was starting to slip today, don't want to elaborate but BH caught myself and quickly came here. 
thanks evryone for the messages... gives me chizuk
Last Edit: 29 Jan 2023 22:59 by yud909.

Re: At a low point right now... 29 Jan 2023 22:53 #391386

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Very inspring!
What did you decide about booking the trip to E"Y


Thanks!
did not end up booking
I'll celebrate over here
maybe for day 180...
Last Edit: 29 Jan 2023 23:00 by yud909.

Re: At a low point right now... 29 Jan 2023 22:55 #391387

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How did this work out?
What did you decide for the future?



eh... not great
I definitely slowed down and watch a lot less and try and stick to much cleaner stuff but still watching... it's a hard habit to break
Last Edit: 29 Jan 2023 23:02 by yud909.
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