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TOPIC: At a low point right now... 11395 Views
Re: At a low point right now... 20 Feb 2023 02:21 #392337
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yud909 wrote on 17 Feb 2023 21:48:
Ahh the feeling of going into Shabbos with another week clean is amazing. Not like some high that I feel by Neillah but more of a relaxed and warm and fuzzy feeling of basking in the last 106 days being clean and davening that Hashem gives me the strength to continue. This week I did have what I felt was a major victory. I went on a business trip (with another person, so no potential to really stumble other than the standard daily shmiras enayim challenges) and unfortunately it was not too successful. I came home feeling like I wasted so much time and money with nothing to show for it. In the past after such a day, my go to escape was the computer (or worse). B'H my mind didn't even venture there. The day was a flop but I knew it wouldn't help to try and escape with something that would make me feel worse. I'm very certain that my challenges are not behind me and I will have struggles for many years to come, but the fact that I didn't automatically go to that place in my head, makes me think maybe this whole "90 days to rewire the brain" has some truth to it.  Have a great Shabbos! Just clicking "thank you" does not justify my feelings while reading your post. You're a true role model to me and many many others here on GYE. You're giving us all strength and inspiration showing us that YES! is IS possible! Keep it up Tzadik! |
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Re: At a low point right now... 20 Feb 2023 03:59 #392343
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yud909 wrote on 17 Feb 2023 21:48:
Ahh the feeling of going into Shabbos with another week clean is amazing. Not like some high that I feel by Neillah but more of a relaxed and warm and fuzzy feeling of basking in the last 106 days being clean and davening that Hashem gives me the strength to continue. This week I did have what I felt was a major victory. I went on a business trip (with another person, so no potential to really stumble other than the standard daily shmiras enayim challenges) and unfortunately it was not too successful. I came home feeling like I wasted so much time and money with nothing to show for it. In the past after such a day, my go to escape was the computer (or worse). B'H my mind didn't even venture there. The day was a flop but I knew it wouldn't help to try and escape with something that would make me feel worse. I'm very certain that my challenges are not behind me and I will have struggles for many years to come, but the fact that I didn't automatically go to that place in my head, makes me think maybe this whole "90 days to rewire the brain" has some truth to it. Have a great Shabbos! By the way, if you calculate how much you would have paid in order to have such a fresh experience, and compare that to how much you’re hoping to make from the trip, I think he would see that you actually made more than you would have otherwise. Second haiku of the night:  Warning: Spoiler!A thought just for you He comes and goes; but for whom? Perhaps for Hashem |
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Just getting over a case of mild insanity here...
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Re: At a low point right now... 21 Feb 2023 16:35 #392419
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yud909 wrote on 19 Feb 2023 04:13:
excellence wrote on 18 Feb 2023 22:43: Ur a Hero!! Just don't take this victory for granted. You must celebrate this victory somehow. Looking forward to hearing from you how you celebrated!! Warning: Spoiler!really bad at celebrating, what do you do? sometimes its as simple as having in mind my victory when dancing at a wedding. or buying an ice cream or chocolate bar etc..... sometimes its more substantial such as sponsoring a kiddush or shalosh seudos celebrating the victories is one of the most important elements of breaking free and should not be underestimated. It really helps change your perspective and feeling about your relationship with the struggle. The idea of celebrating is not new - see chapter 25 in the battle of the generation. best wishes vehkam |
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Re: At a low point right now... 22 Feb 2023 13:33 #392486
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DavidT wrote on 20 Feb 2023 02:21:
yud909 wrote on 17 Feb 2023 21:48: Ahh the feeling of going into Shabbos with another week clean is amazing. Not like some high that I feel by Neillah but more of a relaxed and warm and fuzzy feeling of basking in the last 106 days being clean and davening that Hashem gives me the strength to continue. This week I did have what I felt was a major victory. I went on a business trip (with another person, so no potential to really stumble other than the standard daily shmiras enayim challenges) and unfortunately it was not too successful. I came home feeling like I wasted so much time and money with nothing to show for it. In the past after such a day, my go to escape was the computer (or worse). B'H my mind didn't even venture there. The day was a flop but I knew it wouldn't help to try and escape with something that would make me feel worse. I'm very certain that my challenges are not behind me and I will have struggles for many years to come, but the fact that I didn't automatically go to that place in my head, makes me think maybe this whole "90 days to rewire the brain" has some truth to it. Have a great Shabbos! Just clicking "thank you" does not justify my feelings while reading your post. You're a true role model to me and many many others here on GYE. You're giving us all strength and inspiration showing us that YES! is IS possible! Keep it up Tzadik! Wow, thank you so much for the warm words. It’s always nice to know that the posts are actually helping others (even though I primarily post to help myself). |
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Re: At a low point right now... 26 Feb 2023 16:31 #392700
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yud909 wrote on 19 Feb 2023 04:13:
excellence wrote on 18 Feb 2023 22:43: Ur a Hero!! Just don't take this victory for granted. You must celebrate this victory somehow. Looking forward to hearing from you how you celebrated!! Warning: Spoiler!really bad at celebrating, what do you do? Maybe its time to book that big trip you were talking about? Thanks for keep us updated and for keeping the streak going- we are all rooting for you and getting chizuk from you! |
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Re: At a low point right now... 28 Feb 2023 05:08 #392805
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Re: At a low point right now... 28 Feb 2023 15:23 #392815
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Re: At a low point right now... 28 Feb 2023 20:41 #392834
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yud909 wrote on 28 Feb 2023 15:23:
Been in a bit of a rut last few days probably due to being overtired and stress at work. Last night and again this morning for some strange reason I once again was under the impression that I was employed by the filter company and tasked with making sure that it still works. The good news is that it does work and that after a few minutes I snapped back into reality and realized that no they don't require nor desire my services. If I had a penny for every time I got around those filters... Warning: Spoiler! |
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My Thread (Not for inspiration, but for random bits and pieces of my journey, as well as the inspiring responses of others: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/375514-Enough-is-Enough jackthejewgye@gmail.com There are tips, tools, and techniques, but there are no shortcuts. Here's to our wives and girlfriends...may they never meet! ~ Groucho Marx Optimism is the madness of insisting that all is well when we are miserable.-Voltaire You cannot escape the responsibility of tomorrow by evading it today.- Abraham Lincoln If you don't know where you are going, you might wind up someplace else.- Yogi Berra "I'm not dumb. I just have a command of thoroughly useless information." ~ Calvin |
Re: At a low point right now... 01 Mar 2023 00:58 #392846
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