I’ll be honest, I feel stupid posting everyday just how it was, I feel I should use private diary, it’s very boring every day the same thing, no rushing emotions, no new ideas or wisdom, etc.

But something in me tells me to keep it up, it keeps me in check

Another reason that posting is good for me, because sometimes I don’t feel like I’m doing well meaning I don’t feel the enthusiasm, but seeing clearly on paper that I watched my eyes,  keeps me in place that I’m doing great.

Keep on posting.... dont hesitate. 

I’m doing another week of guarding my eyes

Day 1# Sunday  י' אב  
B"H VERY GOOD

Day 2# Monday י''א אב

Today was a little tricky; I didn’t watch my eyes on the street.

I didn’t full,

[Definition of a fall to me, is needing something from ‘that’ aisle that [accidentally] this women is there, and [accidentally] I forgot something from the next aisle…. , or specially going to a store place etc. in order to get some views, or looking around in order to see]

But I did have an interest in women who I passed. But didn’t gaze or stare, but did give a glimpse.

So BL”N tomorrow will be a better day, will be mindful.

P.S. To be honest I didn’t know I have so many guys following me, [I just saw how many thank you’s I got yesterday] I would have been more careful not to have to confess to such a big audience.

Guarding my eyes in the summertime is murder.
It is also very liberating.

This is a great thread because it illustrates the importance of taking it one day at a time.
And sometimes one nisayon at a time.

Keep on, my friend!

Day 3# Tuesday י''ב אב  
B"H VERY GOOD

Day 4# Wednesday י''ג אב  
B"H VERY GOOD

Day 5# Thursday י''ד אב  
B"H VERY GOOD

KEEP IT UP 

Day 6# Friday  ט''ו אב  
B"H VERY GOOD

Day 7# ט''ז אב שבת קודש
B"H VERY GOOD

I wanna do another week of guarding my eyes

Day 1# Sunday י''ז אב
B"H VERY GOOD

Day 2# Monday י''ח אב
B"H VERY GOOD

Day 3# Tuesday י''ט אב
B"H VERY GOOD

HI

Today was a hard day, I took off from work a few days, and I wanted to spend them with my wife, one morning was nice, next day was busy with a simcha in the family, and today she said she is tired and went into bed for the whole morning, and I babysat the baby, until the kids came home from day camp.

I was very lonely, and could have been very upset, that this how my day off looks like., but I was just open to my feelings, and didn’t try to suppress it, and lived with it.

And worked not to have any resentment against my wife,

In the past such a day was very dangerous.

I know I need to connect more with people and friends, and not to expect all my need for connection from my wife.

P.S. what would you have done you have nothing to do [I already learned a blat gemarah] how would you connect with others.

Thank you