hello to all heiliga people on here.
B"H i found this wonderful place after suffering almost 10 years from p&m addiction, and going for help, were i got great advice, untill a certain limit. therefore now im so excited to be part of this beautiful community.
and with my prayers to hashem to be matzliach in my holy mission, hoping this is my final place to reach my goals i wish and waiting for so long.
and get back on the right track to build my beautiful home with hashrooas hashchina.
and the same i wish to all wonderfull people here in this special platform.
thnks to hashem had a beautiful experience since i got connected to this הייליגע קהלה.

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ive always fantasized all this stuff starting from a young age. when i got older i finally discoverd the whole story and evry thing i suppose to do to ma*****e. and from there on it never stopd. even i tryd very hardly. i spoke to my rabbis, they couldnt help me too much, once i when i was a big bochur, while having a conversation with my rebi on this, he started: oh thats very not good very not good; i right away escaped the beis medrish all teary, this was my last convo with him on this, no blames, its part of the story.
part of my problem was, i had then very a good name, witch i think it is still remaining, i was a high achiever, i got very depressed from all this.
then i married my tzedeikas, thinking\hoping things will get better, but it it turnd out to be the total opposite, now im blessed with an precious child, still didnt move any foward. 
it is a similar story to many others
my lack of communicating and creating friendships saved my life.  
i started seeking out for help, i sat in the chair of tow people who are  specializing in these matter, and b"h i made little progress, with some different techniques that i got.
thanks to hashem i love learning mussar and chasidis, while the years went threw, i was able to gain a lots of chisidis and hashkofa in these subject, like in many others, but the light at the and of the tunnel i never saw with my eyes till these days, that i that i got connected to this holy chabura kedoisha.
and a special thanks to all the wonderful people here so welcoming me so nicely. and giving so much chizik and strength.
im full of hope to share with you my good news soon!!!

Welcome!
One of the great benefits of being part of this community is that you come to realize that you are NOT alone...
We are living in extremely hard times and many people are suffering like you. At the same time many have also recovered and so will you with Hashem's help.

yea, oomein. thanx much
i said: i realized that the world is much bigger then just me
hoping to update my chart soon bez"h. 

B"H i updated my chrt one day clean. im so happy about this, because i did not m.... just by saying to my self, THIS TIME I WILL NOT DO THIS!!!
i hear this a lot from my self, and this is my first success in very a long time. 

יום ליבשה wrote on 14 Sep 2021 16:47:

Mazel Tov!!!
May it be the first success of many many more!
(and if you do fall again c"v, just pick yourself up and try again... NEVER give up)

DavidT wrote on 14 Sep 2021 16:49:

thanx much
these words keeps me going NEVER give up