Good day,
It's taken me a while to get here, I have been here once before but just as a visitor and got really scared and never came back until today.
Other people would call me a Rabbi, or a Community leader, but the reason I am here is I live a Double life.
I am BH Married with children.
but I seek more than just porn I seek out online people to talk to others that can make me feel useful and needed, people I feel I can "help" I know that its Shtuyot.. and that's why I am here!
I hope and pray to Hashem that he gives me the Koach i need to continue and stay strong to overcome this challenge...

Welcome,

A lot of people feel they are living a double life, you are not alone and it will get better. 

Thank you for building up the courage to come here and introduce yourself, its not easy to talk about this.

If you feel the need to talk to someone privately, i would like to help you and listen. my email is 360gye@gmail.com

Yup, I think a lot of us here are leading a double life. I too am some sort of community leader type of thing; it's very difficult to live a double life. It eats away, and definitely another reason to work on it. But many here know how you feel. 

Do you just "chat to help" or you get more involved than that? 

BF ( best friend:)

I love the subject, I think many here are tormented by the same problem. Double life. I to am a community leader and it was eating me up at times.

Hatzlacha on your new journey

Question: Is there anyone here NOT leading a double life?
meaning, here we are, trying to be understood, trying to break free, trying to get rid of this pesky yetzer hara...
and at the same time maintaining a public persona as someone who is not ill effected by the taavos of this world. 
gee, I do feel like a hypocrite sometimes.
although, I take a look at my latest streak, and feel good about myself. I know I'm not perfect (far from it) but I'm one step away from a be'er shachas.
so, I go from feeling like a hypocrite, to feeling like a lamed vuv nik... (and then back again!)
double- good luck making it work.
I hope that this is the first step towards a journey of sobriety.
in another post, someone wrote "if people would just know who i am, they wouldn't like me"
someone else replied ,"but if they really knew who you were, that would understand your struggles and they would honor you."
I commend you for.coming forward

Breakfreenow

I do not understand what you mean by "I seek out online people to talk to others that can make me feel useful and needed"

Surely your job as Rabbi is very much about this, helping people?
What are you seeking when you go online?

Welcome Rabbi, I not sure there is still place for you on the head table.
We are from all backgrounds, From Rabbis till garbage collectors.

Here on GYE we can seek out to people to talk and to help.
Hatzluche raba

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Wow! 209 days clean! 
Maybe u can come back and share some of ur wisdom?