Sure - I will start with this:
I tried for many years to stop acting out.
Some of the methods I used were:
praying and crying to Hashem, devotedly reading the gye website and chizuk emails etc, employing the taphsic method: fasting (which I hated), paying fines (large ones too!), going to the mikva (sometimes more than once a day - which I hated even more than fasting), phone conferences etc) but I was never successfully clean for long. I had plenty of 14/20/30 day streaks, but always fell in the end.
It wasn't until I walked into a room of fellow addicts and admitted my utter defeat and the unmanageability of my life (step one) and got a sponsor to help me work the 12 steps that I was given the gift of sobriety.
Thank God my life today is completely unrecognizable from before, in all aspects. In particular, I am generally lust free from all forms of pornography and have periods of time of genuine serenity; a gift given to me by Hashem one day at a time.
