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TOPIC: I'm new here 1221 Views
I'm new here 31 Aug 2017 20:15 #319593
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I've been a drug addict since i was 15, and now I'm 35. i was sober and clean from drugs for 8 years. But this isnt the problem. (i mean, it is , but it isnt), it's just the mask for my real problem. sex addiction. or porn addiction. since i was 15, i was looking and watching porn on the internet, mainly same sex porn (M2M). I was covering this addiction with the substance addiction. 3 years into my substance and porn sobriety ( 1 year into my marriage) i slipped and started watching m2m porn again (while my new born daughter was sleeping in her crib
 ). it wasn't so strong at the time because i would go months between looking. but then about 3 years ago i masturbated for the first time in almost 7 years, while i was on a live video chat with another person. since then I've been masturbating usually everyday. I cannot control myself. i am angrier, and have more of a temper than i did before. last year, i relapsed with my substance abuse. last week, my wife caught me with a substance, and i decided to stop the substances. its been very very very hard. but I'm pushing through. 2 nights ago i thought "Oh, ill just quickly look at that website again" then i slipped. then last night i slipped again. after i did it, i thought "What are you doing? why? " i need help through this right now. this morning i was crying and crying while i was driving to work, begging H' to help me. And then when i got home, i saw the ad for GYE.I'm very happy that I've found this site and all of you.
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Re: I'm new here 31 Aug 2017 20:22 #319594
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My thread/My story
Slogans and Sayings Relapses and falling are inevitable, the challenge is getting up. Tzaddikim are the not the ones that don't fall, they are the ones that fall constantly and get up constantly. Feel free to contact me anytime through private message or chat. Chizzuk emails by Rabbi Duvid Ashear shlita that can change your day subscribe now. Check out my powerful tefila. Depressed? Check out some of my jokes |
Re: I'm new here 31 Aug 2017 22:16 #319596
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Feel free to contact me at michelgelner@gmail.com
My threads: Lessons Learned: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/335248-Lessons-Learned My Story and G-d Bless GYE: guardyoureyes.com/forum/17-Balei-Battims-Forum/303036-My-story-and-G-d-bless-GYE |
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