When i first started on this site ....my entire life was different ...i had opportunities i wasnt even aware of ....my marriage wasnt where it is now ...and i was soo thoroughly into my fantasy p*** world i didnt even know that i was burning it all down ....then i started counting to 90 ......but the counting became the goal instead of really looking at myself and getting into recovery ....took 2 more years and loosing everything at least emotionally....im still counting but im seeing myself for real and my family and im going through the most difficult things .....all from lust ....i dont know if i will succeed ...i just try to take it one day at a time ....if i can just have today without worrying about tommorow that is enough....

That's a great attitude!

Hatzlacha!

It's really late and I need to get some shut eye but I can't go to sleep without commenting at least briefly to you laughingman. Just want to say that your posts display TREMENDOUS growth.

You sound so much more grounded, focused and clear-minded.

You should be proud of your achievement.