Hi, just wanted to introduce myself to the site,
Im early twenties, married and I am a respected Avreich in my Kollel, I learn most of the day, have the best Chavrusa's, but ever since i was Bochur have been unable to break my addiction. As a teen i was with girls a lot and this made me very lustful, when i came to Yeshiva and became frummer i was still never able to break free and constantly found myself giving in ...
Post marriage I thought it would improve, but not to be, in fact it got significantly worse, every few days i fall, tell myself never again, make a thousand kabbalah's, am great for a few days, then i see the wrong thing on the street then...
I have the best internet filter there is but still i find ways to get around it. The good news is though, without the internet i have not been MTZ"L in years, only with the internet to i have a strong enough ta'avo, even so i rarely am MTZ"L,, usually just watch..
I have read all the seforim, Taharas Hakodes, Light of Epfraim etc.. and still cannot break this addiction, I need help