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Re: The Ramblings of a Recovering Lunatic (General) 27 Nov 2014 02:38 #244198

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I just received some very sad news. I'm not going to go into it here, but its challenging and very painful for my family and I. What I'd like to share here is this:

I was saying Tehilim (for rachamim elyonim) when I got the news. After taking the call, I returned to my Tehilim this time davening for courage and strengh to deal with the upcoming days with emunah and grace. The next pasuk that I read was: "Kol archos Hashem chesed v'emes" and I'm thinking: "Wow! What an appropriate pasuk! All of Hashem's ways are kind and true!" But then I realized that the pasuk finishes "for those who are notzer briso v'eidosav - those who guard his covenant" and I thought "Oh! I guess this isn't necessarily chesed."

Then it hit me. Of course Hashem always does chesed with us. The pasuk is saying that ALL of Hashem's ways are chesed and emmes and that those who are notzer briso understand that. Now, I'm not saying this is the pshat in pasuk, but it jumped out at me that I can say I am "notzer briso". And the reason that I am able to do that is because I was forced to live life one day at a time on Hashem's terms. What keeps me sober and not lusting is the very fundamental emunah that the circumstances of my life every single moment are orchestrated by a loving G-d who knows exactly what I need and what is good for me. That faith allows us not to get caught up in the worry, stress, loneliness, guilt, anger etc etc that fuel our lusting and dependency on our drug of choice. I had to come to recognize that when I see a pretty woman and looking at her and fantasizing about her seems to be the best thing in the world, I have to stop and say to myself, "No. Hashem knows what's best. Give that pleasure up." And I had to do that hundreds of times.

So, having to come to terms with and implement that truth on a moment by moment basis makes us the kind of person who is able to be notzer briso. And that is the kind of person who is able to see that ALL of Hashem's ways are kind and true. To the extant that one lives in that faith can he thereby be able to "be notzer briso." Its not that Hashem only does kindness to the notzer bris. And its not some kind of segula. Its the etzem idea and living that is required to successfully stay away from lusting which offers us the clarity and ability to faithfully accept Hashem's will for us, no matter what it might look like.

May Hashem save us from nisyonos and give us the strength to handle the ones that He knows we need.
אלא יש לו לייחד כל מעשיו לשמו הגדול לבד, ולא ישתף עמו דבר אחר
That's the goal. The key to everything. Working on it, bs"d.
Last Edit: 27 Nov 2014 23:42 by MendelZ.

Re: The Ramblings of a Recovering Lunatic (General) 27 Nov 2014 03:54 #244204

Bsuros tovos & Hatzlacha rabbah

MT

Re: The Ramblings of a Recovering Lunatic (General) 27 Nov 2014 20:40 #244221

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וְחֶסֶד ה' מֵעוֹלָם וְעַד עוֹלָם עַל יְרֵאָיו וְצִדְקָתוֹ לִבְנֵי בָנִים.
לְשֹׁמְרֵי בְרִיתוֹ וּלְזֹכְרֵי פִקֻּדָיו לַעֲשׂוֹתָם.
הסיבה שיש דברים קשים העוברים עליך היא בגלל שהאדם חושב כי "אני עומד" שהוא מנהל הכל,
ברגע שיתן הכנעה כי השי"ת מנהיג הכל אז כבר אפשר להתמודד עם הקשיים. שמעתי מאדם גדול

If life is a LEMON make LEMONADE

Thank You Hashem for every moment of Sobriety!

Re: The Ramblings of a Recovering Lunatic (General) 27 Nov 2014 23:36 #244227

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Amein! and thank you, MT.
And shkoaych, Belmont.
אלא יש לו לייחד כל מעשיו לשמו הגדול לבד, ולא ישתף עמו דבר אחר
That's the goal. The key to everything. Working on it, bs"d.

Re: The Ramblings of a Recovering Lunatic (General) 01 Jul 2015 17:13 #258316

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Mendel'z a general; Moish is a Private.
I gotta lose about 25 pounds before I cen even think of joinin'.

MZ; how's life when there's no football?
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Re: The Ramblings of a Recovering Lunatic (General) 10 Jul 2015 12:07 #259211

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Football never goes away. It sits there quietly in the background, waiting to rear its ugly head and mess me up. As soon as I think that its gone for good, there it is again. I have to accept that I can never follow football like a gentleman. There's no two ways about it. Wait, what was the question about?
אלא יש לו לייחד כל מעשיו לשמו הגדול לבד, ולא ישתף עמו דבר אחר
That's the goal. The key to everything. Working on it, bs"d.

Re: The Ramblings of a Recovering Lunatic (General) 10 Jul 2015 15:19 #259228

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MendelZ wrote:
Football never goes away. It sits there quietly in the background, waiting to rear its ugly head and mess me up. As soon as I think that its gone for good, there it is again. I have to accept that I can never follow football like a gentleman. There's no two ways about it. Wait, what was the question about?


I'm stumped
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