I have spent the past approx 2 years coming back to yiddishkeit. Unfourtuantely, as a young man, I picked up some terrible habits before I came back. I have tried to stop countless times, telling myself that its the last time. The last time I will feel these feelings, the last time I will send myself away from Hashem, the last time I will prevent my own happiness, etc. Yet I somehow still fall. I want to be done with this. I want to move on and be free of these chains, but going at it alone hasnt worked yet, so I turn to my brothers. I turn to klall yisrael. While I am still too much of a coward to speak to my friends or rebbeim about this issues, I now know I dont have to be alone. And together we will not let the Sattan win this one. Today we will fight and today we will overcome. The gedolim have been crying that this is the nissayon of our generation. Yes, we have fallen prey. But we are different, we are standing up. I'm here to begin my journey of finally freeing myself and hopefully, along the way, gaining the tools to help pick up any fallen Yiddin on the way. I want to thank all of the tzaddikim who made all of this possible and I want to give a tremendous Yashar Coyach to all of the holy yiddin who have decided to face their Y'H. Let the chains be broken!
