welcome & thanks for sharing.
I have found that especially with frum folks it is easy to ask for things like filters on a computer because it is something many Rabbis mention as well as the frum media like Mishpacha etc etc. So just keep it in mind....you might be able to get one at your parents without giving away too much info.
are you in the US or Israel?
what sort of steps are you taking towards recovery now?
gottagetout wrote on 12 Nov 2011 18:20:
ive been on the forum for around a month and its time to tell my story
the first time i started looking at women out of lust was just before the age twelve
(it took a lot of honesty to admit that) it started with models in a magazine under my blanket at night with a flashlight. i wasnt even aware how problematic what i was doing at the time was. it eventualy progressed to love themed movies and eventulay p**n. at around 15 i confided in my rosh yeshiva about my problem and was working with him about it but when i graduated and went on to yeshiva i am not with him to get help from him and my parents know nothing and out of lack of who to turned to i ended up here (thanks to your advertising) BH during zman the problem isnt so bad (obviously its horrible but comparitevly) but bein hazmanim is real hard
and the problem is compounded that we dont have filters at home and i cant ask my parents to put on b/c that would let them know about my problem which im not ready to do. just one great peice of advice from my rebbi to keep in mind and help keep our spirits up: saying no just once can be a kapparah for a thousand times we fall. hashem knows the nisayon and isnt trying to fail us he wants us close to him more than we realize and possibly more than us and when we take that one step forward its the beginning of teshuva mahavah
