danagar wrote on 15 Jun 2011 14:28:
I must thank you for this insight and sparking my thought. especially, i would like to thank you for helping me get my self esteem back.
You're welcome - it's encouraging to me too that I've been helpful
I was wondering if i really count as an addict, since i find many ppl here seem to be worse off than me. I do have macheshavot creep up on me like any normal young adult, i have issues (as i said) with watching porn, which i cant get a full year clean of (tho BH i got months of sobriety in), but i dont search up and down the street for my fix or look desperately for it. if it is out of sight (and i make sure it is with the help of a filter) it is out of sight.
just as a pat on the back, i do make sure to keep my eyes clean on the street--that i have been successful with for about a year.
I hope none of this is any bit problematic, whether offensive, gayvadik, or just straight out makes me look wrong.
I don't know if you're an addict or not. I'm just saying that viscious cycle is a warning sign of such. I didn't think I was an addict either, and I still don't think I'm a severe addict - perhaps a mild one. I'm certainly not as bad off as others on this forum, but I also don't want to become like that before waking up. "Hit bottom while on top" is the motto that GYE has coined (and they really should patent it
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). Why don't you join the phone conferences for a week or so? Give Duvid Chaim a call and talk things over with him. He might assume you're an addict just because you called, but don't let that get to you. He's spoken to more people going through this struggle than just about anyone on this planet, so you can bet that he has much wisdom to share. Here's his contact info for you to get his number and here's the info about the conferences -
www.guardyoureyes.org/?page_id=678