Momo, this is so gevaldig, so precious!!

Notes from the last Duvid Chaim call (before Y"K):

Being the last call of this series, this call was a summary session of the 13 weeks.

- In our childhood we felt pain, we hid from it and pretended it wasn't there. As a result, we disconnected ourselves from ourselves, and the world, and HaShem. We isolated ourselves. We hid and soothed ourselves with our "drug of choice", lust.

- We should start being aware of who we are, reconnect ourselves to the world, and to HaShem.

- Be aware of who you are. Start feeling joy/pain/loss. Don't go through life as a robot or zombie. Stop reacting to everything that triggers or upsets you. Take action and be proactive!

- Teshuva is not changing ourselves, it is our returning to the way we were when HaShem made us (when we were born).

- It's time for us to put away our "toys" and grow up and "get real".

- I'm here to serve the world and see HaShem's hand in it, to connect to Him. The world isn't here to serve me.

- Awareness of who we are and what drives us means we are in recovery, even if we aren't 100% clean. We should be aware that we act out because we lust. We lust because we feel R.I.D. (restlessness, irritability and discontent). We feel R.I.D because of our egos, and we are selfish. (We think we are the center of the world. We think we are in control. We think the world owes us. We think if something doesn't go "our way" we are entitled to get upset. We push G-d aside when we lust.)

The answer is to realize we are powerless of our addiction and not in control of our lives. HaShem is the driver. I should do His will, not mine. It's all good since it's all G-d, all the time! Surrender to HaShem. Be selfless. Help and constantly think of other people. Get out of your head. Whenever you go somewhere, don't think what can I get out of the situation, rather what can I do to help others.

- Quality of sobriety is more important than quality. A few days feeling connected to HaShem is more important than weeks of unconnected clean days.

- Be happy! Nobody can take our place in this world. Become a friend with yourself; begin to like who you are.

GOOD LUCK!!!

Duvid Chaim is starting a new group after Sukkot. Stay tuned to this forum for more details.

Momo,

Thank yo so so much for all the work that went into this thread (and Moti!) YOu brought DC to all of us who were unable to attend in person, and summarized things so clearly. Even without having been there, the messages and insights came across.

Tizku l'mitzvos and in the zchus of your work here, may Hashem send you your own healing b'karov!

Momo, this last summary is so beautiful, it's definitely an ACE. And I want to post info on the new group starting after Sukkos. Thank you so much for sharing DC calls with us, there is so much precious wisdom here!

P.S> I hope you will join the calls for group 2 as well. We all need that group support, and we need to keep learning and working the steps... It's a life time progress. You'll never stop learning new things! (and this time, you'll be one of the "pros" on the call...  :D)

Momo,

Thank you so much for sharing.  You are a real inspiration to me and to so many on the forum. As a wise man once told me:

-We should start being aware of who we are, reconnect ourselves to the world, and to HaShem.

So, Momo, listen to the advise of this wise man and be aware of who you are.  And if you do not know you can ask me.  Except I only know a small fraction of the true you. 

With the Help of Hashem and the willingness on your part, may you be zoche to continue to uncover your true self underneath.