Parshas Toldos: Vayehav Yitzchok ess Eisav ki tzayid b'piv. What do we want?
What do we want to want?
Even when I don't feel like I want sobriety at all costs, I wish that I did want it!
Satmar Rebbe Zt wrote:
Nichsof nichsafti = I wanted to want!
How can I learn to want that?
The trick is to keep talking about it.
Constant repetition will make us really believe what we are saying.
He'emanti ki adaber = I believe because I speak.
If I keep talking about the greatness of my Higher Power, I will come to believe it!
Every Father wants to love his son. Even if the son is a bit wayward; even if the son is not living the lifestyle which the father would like him to.
How was Yitzchok get himself to love Eisav??
He constantly repeated that he likes him. By saying that Yitzchok managed to 'trap' his brain into liking Eisav too!
Ki tzayid b'piv = Because Yitzchok trapped HIMSELF with his own mouth! He used his mouth to get his feelings & emotions to follow what his brain told him is the correct way to act.
We must constantly talk about our goals, about closeness to Hashem etc.
WE WILL REACH THAT LEVEL SOMEDAY!!!