Has anyone ever heard of a game called pool? not the card game. to yeshivish eh??
I was in the middle of a wonderfull game, losing (to myself), but still better than average. But when I went for the 2ball, I accidentaly sent the 6 and 9-balls bouncing all over the table, untill the 6-ball found a side pocket. Instead of being thrilled, as for me this is an 'accomplishment', I was upset that I missed the 2-ball.
But then I caught myself, "I am not upset over my poor shot, since I got a ball in. So then why am I upset? 'I meant to do that!?' It must be that I want for a certain ball to reach a pocket, and it hurts when I do not get what I want"
Sometimes hashem can be meitiv with us, but on the condition that we come to the realization, that he knows what is best. Without that 'midset', we miss-out on all the good in life.
** as you see, something good can come from shooting pool, although this is not an endorsement for bittul torah
