With Rosh Hashanah around the corner there is a very important
question to be addressed: How do we merit a good judgement?
The first step to earning a good judgement is to realize that one
is being judged! With this realization one then needs to act.
One needs to contemplate which areas of his life, his midot,
his Torah observance, etc. require improvement and are truly
within his means to improve. This does not mean to become
the Rebbe overnight. Every individual is judged based on their own
level, life circumstances, and abilities. In order to make a true and lasting
commitment to change one needs to realize what he needs to change and
why, how he can change it, and there needs to be a motivation that will
carry him through to completion. One needs to consider these three points
so that his commitment does not end up like any other new years resolution.
But is such change truly enough to merit a good judgement
when each person has so much to fix? The Gemara (San Hedrin 108a)
states that Noach did not deserve to survive the flood and he only did
so because he found favor in God’s eyes. The Midrash (Beresh*t Rabbah 32, 6)
states that Noach did not enter the ark until the waters reached his knees.
Rashi (Beresh*t 7:7) comments that Noach too was a person of little faith
because he was in doubt whether God will truly bring a flood to the world
or not so he did not enter the ark until the waters forced him to do so.
Yet, despite this, God viewed Noach as the most righteous individual
of his generation (Beresh*t 6:9). Why? Because God judges each
individual’s growth and development based on their circumstances
and abilities which are tailor-made by God in accordance with that
person’s purpose in the world. Noach was able to overcome the influences
and standards imposed by society and he was able to grow and come
closer to God in accordance with his level. In God’s eyes, Noach was
the most righteous of his generation, not because he was not lacking
in his character development and growth, but because he made the most out of
the situation that God placed him in. He recognized his potential and made it into a reality.
Back to our question. Is it possible for one to merit a good judgement
through committing to a lasting change even it appears insignificant?
Yes. If it is one’s true desire to grow in Torah, mitzvoth, and their
relationship with God then any change is enough to instigate God
to help him reach his true potential. As the Midrash on Song of Songs (5:2) says:
“Open up for me an opening like the eye of a needle and in turn
I will enlarge it to be an opening through which wagons can enter.”
The Kotzker Rebbe notes that God will only expand the the tiny hole
we make if it penetrates fully - the changes have to be sincere and lasting.
May we all merit to make true and lasting changes in our spiritual growth,
character development, and our relationships with God and others, and in this
merit may we be written and signed for a year full of joy, blessing, and peace! Amen.