We all try to avoid the avieros associated with this site
Why ???
I know ...then dont ...then do ...then sort of do .....
Now I do However ..
I had to place it in my head. The SA white book  "What is wrong with lust"  part, did that
Hihurim the acting out which  I do, is really no different then
...the guy who reaches for weed when he gets fired  
The woman who can't stop holding back on that donut when she feels hurt by her husband
The teenager who takes a puff for fear of not fitting in at yeshiva
There is life- ....and escape ie DRUGS
 Drugs come in different forms
Kedoshim and is all about livng a healthy balanced holistc lifestyle
Maybe in some ways I didnt "want' to get it
Now I am able to answer "im yishalcha adam" as Rashi comments on the words "vishenantam livanehca" I guess now, it is, as the words previous to that in shema, it is "on my heart " 
Thanks you Mr White Book guy for a lesson I was taught at fourteen
Is now part of me intelletually ..and more

  


The only healthy obsession slash drug is limude HaTorah