instead of surfing looking for photos of women, I'll try to read the Attitude handbook instead. I'm not sure if it's as stimulating, but we'll see what happens.
It depends how you define stimulating.... The pics are more stimulating to the growth of your disease, that's for sure. But the handbook is stimulating to your recovery! So take your pick
I learned how to bypass it to sites I am aware of with inappropriate photos of women
Not good. Although, yes, the filter is our "Heker" not foolproof, it still has to be a GOOD Heker. Having a way around the filter with just a few clicks of the mouse is not good enough if we want to really start to heal. We
highly suggest either upgrading to a BETTER filter, or getting accountability software. That can help A LOT. See
this page for some great ideas... One guy on this forum set up x3watch.com and is using ME as his accountability sponsor. He had only one slip in the last few months - and BOY was he ashamed. I saw every site he went to! This is really helpful and helps us internalize the concept of "Aiyin Royeh" - that Hashem is always watching. Since Hashem is "abstract" and it's hard to feel "fear of heaven" when under the spell of addiction, a real live person makes it all the more "real" to our minds of flesh and blood.
I'm trying not to look at women when I'm outside. Mostly succeeding.... I stopped watching TV and movies a while ago.
Amazing! You are bashing the Sitra achra. Slam BAM. Pretty soon he'll be down for the count.
This is a major point I have to work on, the letting go of my lust. I'm still not sure how this works.
Ah, that's the big question :D ... It all starts with the WILL to let go of lust, after recognizing it as a poison that is destroying our lives... Please see the SA pamphlet called "Why stop lusting?"
over here.
Momo, this is fantastic. You are the first one to be working through the handbooks so systematically. And so, I will make you a deal. If you finish working through the tools with us here, I hereby declare that this board of the forum will forever be remembered as "Momo's Board".
May Hashem take you from strength to strength!