The way it works with me is that I go through pretty long periods where I don't really look at all the garbage and then a few days where I do. During the "good" periods, I always feel kind of fake, like it's not real, and that I know I am going to fall again. What do you think?
Thanks.

I think the good times are the real you and the bad times are fake.

Good times are real and bad times are real

Everything else any on tels you is just sugarwater

Ok hesber!

We live in the reality we create for ourselves

We are human.
We have a drive

What is it that we are looking for??

What fuels the fire?

It is rthe quest for spiritual enjoyment

So when we are doing what we call good (what we call good aint so great either but that's for another post). We never "left go"
So we are not acting in a bad way. But we still know it and want it.

When we are doing bad.  We make all kinds of justifications to explain why its not sooo bad etc

So we are caught in this mish mash called yo yo land
And we take turns who is in the drivers seat

In the mean time while we convince ourselves that all this is fake and it is a fantasy

Or even worse while we get or give chizzuk we convince ourselves that all of this is fantastic

The spittual and emotional duress we are creating on our body and soul and on the poor people we associate with is quite unbelievable

Yeah we can delude ourselfes and say "hey this is not the real me" yeah but what if my 12 year old son asked me "hey Ta what was that stuff you were watching there??

Will I say uh ehh ujj uhuhm ehh ahhh uhh . Oh itt was fake.  But u shud never do this fake!


Hello

World !!

Wake up!!

We live in realville

In realville our actions have implications

Call it addict call it shmaddict call it rasha call it sick call it devil call it satan call it samachmem call it trigger call it rid shmid adhd adddhddd.
It won't help

There is only so far yyou can kick the can down the road


We all live in in realville

B