Shalom everybody,
I would just like to share with you something incredible which just happened to me.
3 days ago it was my 40th day without masturbation and porns. I got a kind of fever, cough, sore mouth and throat and I was generally feeling not so good. At night just saying the Shem? before sleeping I started remembering a sexual abuse I had completely removed and I received from a person extraneous to my family. My whole body became rigid and my endocrine system was clearly overreacting, but I was ok because the memory was surrounded by a kind of green protective vapor.
The following day I realized that the sexual fantasies which have tormented me for more that 20 years were sensibly diminished and I realized they were just repetition of that memory!
Had I known before that healing from such a pain would have be so easy I wouldn't have waited until 33 for joining this website!
I can't describe my feeling of freedom from an awful interior condition! I hope I will go on healing!
To those who are struggling as me: Chazak Chazak venit-chazek!!! It's definitely worth fighting the battle!!!
Chaim1977