I'm just curious as to how people feel their addiction developed, a lot of people seem to point to some chisaron in their childhood home. I didn't feel particularly unloved or lonley and my home was pretty normal (whatever that means...) can we really develop an addiciton if our childhood is normal???

I'm interested in people's thoughts...

i wonder if it is possible at all to pin down the reason/cause for this addiction. it may well be that at a time we felt a need to escape and the opportunity to lust presented itself and bingo, another future GYE member was created
i had some wackiness in my upbringing and life. does that mean that that is the cause? who knows? besides for G-d. and ultimately this addiction works to our benefit, by forcing us to examine our lives and seek out G-d

The root is a nature

Bingo!



Can we keep on trucking????


What will be gained from all this fill-us-ef-ee and sike-e-olidj-ee??


!!b??

great point, rebbe b! (as usual)

L'maaseh I agree with Rebbe b. and Zemmy

But I want to answer your question

As Reb b. would say,

Herr ois,

It's simple -TAIVOS!!!

YeSsIrReEbOb (I actually remember a Hick who used to say that all the time. Sounds quaint? Try it for a couple of days running -it's annoying as heck).

I was a little boy.

I did M. before I knew there was anything wrong with it.

I had my own $*$&^&^@@%!! up fantasies knocking around my head.

I was exposed to P, in mags, phone (who here remembers those business cards and fake dollar bills that the Amaleknik PornPushers Yemach Shemam Vezichram used to scatter all over the place?!?!?! Come on New Yorkers, let your brash voices be heard!!!), CompuServ forums, AOL, later Internet. Where did I not feed my habit???

The older I got, the more technology developed, the easier it got to get your fix w/o leaving the comfort of your own home.

The neuron patterns became so ingrained in my mind that even when I grasped the severity of what was going on -I was trapped by my own mind -because I started with this garbage before I was even a ben-bechira... (i.e. way before bar mitzvah).

I was history, even though I managed to suppress my urges for long periods of time and not act out on them, and my exterior life exuded success in Ruchniyus -my brain was fried because of the constant milchemes HaYetzer which I was waging... And I would fall again and feel crushed... It didn't matter if I hadn't seen P***  or act out (i.e. M****) for years ( yes I've actually had such long dry periods)... every woman a walking trigger...I WAS HISTORY...

And then I found GYE, and I'm part of HISTORY in the making!!!!

HOORAY!!!

THE BEGINNING, NOT THE END!!!

KOT!!!

EBD

I just stumbled upon this and just wanted to share my agreement with what BENDUR has said. Yasher koyach!