Goo evening/afternoon chevra
Today was an interesting day.
I had a meeting with my sex addiction therapist which ill discuss in a new thread shorly.
I dont know forsure why im sharing this but i just want to say that yesterday i almost fell worse than anyone here even knows,except for mom.
Exact details i will not share(for several reasons)but i just want to thank you guys for saving me from doing something very stupid.
Anyway my meeting was a real eye opener,and i came out feeling excited about this new mehalech in dealing with my addiction but still feelin pretty good nonetheless.i would even go so far as to say that i was feeling better than ive had in quite a bit.
I was feeling even better when i passed a few girls and i noticed something quite interesting.The "aura" that i sense by girls usually,that bright gleam,was not there!and these were decent looking girls,but i was not interested in the slightest.i guess its cause i was in such a positive mood maybe.
But on the bus on the way to my friends town (where im staying the night) i was listening to my mp3 when i felt someone bump against my arm.
I looked up and there was this really really good looking girl smiling at me
"sorry" she was still smiling
"Mmhm" i mumbled back incohesively,and tried to go back to looking at the window.
(not now,please G-d)
"So where are u headed?" she asked me (in hebrew)
Ever notice how stupid u sound sometimes when u mumble?
"Komnnkdf"
"What??"
I cleared my throat and told her which yishuv i was headed to.
"Hey me too!"
Another smile.
I could swear that she also winked at me.
"Very nice"
I finally pulled myself together and put my music back on and stared out the window until i sensed that she had walked away.
I breathed a huge sigh of relief.
I could imagine what she was probably telling her friend at the moment:
I think that guy is retarted.
"Better to be considered retarted in this world your whole life"
I guess im a natural.
-uri