why am i posting this?heaven knows.cause i dont.what kind of 20 year old boy hesitates on an oppurtunity like this?am i gay?
We know! Because you know in your mind that turning down the invitation was a monumental accomplishment that caused a
tremendous commotion in shomaim.
But you're having trouble hearing the commotion and the y"h is working over-time to convince you that this is something small. (And only when he manages to catch you at a weak moment and trick you in to sinning against your will, that's a big deal. What twisted logic!)
So Hashem in His Great Mercy gave you the seichal to tell us about it so that we can help you remember that YOU ARE SHAKING THE HEAVENS AND BRINGING THE GE'ULAH! HKB'H IS TELLING THE MALACHIM "CHAZU BNI CHAVIVI THAT IS GOING TOTALY AGAINST THE DERECH HATEVA AND THE DERECH HA'OLAM, LOOK AT THE POWER OF A YIDDISHE NESHOMOH." THE KIDDUSH HASHEM THAT YOU ARE MAKING IS WITHOUT COMPARISON! THIS IS THE GREATEST FULFILLMENT OF TACHLIS HABRIAH!
And by the way I can't imagine myself -when I was at your stage of the game, standing up to such a test; it would have been totally hopeless.
CHAZAK VE'EMATZ! And I have to say it again: Your songs are awesome beyond description!