sounds great to me.
whatever helps you,sis.

Ok.This is quite hard for me to say,but I must anyway.
People have been telling me that I've been too intense on the forum.
Also,I sense in myself this annoyance sometimes when I go through the forum.
I was aware the whole time that it comes from a need for some control and stability.
But until now I didn't realize the extent.
Chatai ani mazkir hayom...

As I work with rav shlachter on trying to let go of my various controls and "securities",I find myself desperate at times for any form of security.
My desire for an emotional connection with a woman is stronger than it has been in a long time.
And this desperation showed itself on the forum,too.
As this is one of my biggest places of security,I sometimes hold on too much.
I find myself spending an abnormal amount of time on the forum,and sensing any "controls" on the forum very acutely.
And I have responded in kind.I have so strongly wanted to ensure this place of security that I have been too strong minded and even confrontational at times,all to feel secure.
I so badly want to be sure that I am headed in the right direction that I have pushed my shitta too strongly at times,just to feel that my path is correct for me.
As I sensed this,I tried taking a step back,but I found leaving this place of security a little too difficult.
So from now on,I will try to let go of this need to control and hear people out more,without feeling too threatened.
Alas,Rome was not built in a day,but I shall try my hardest.

My love to all
-Uri

Ok.This is quite hard for me to say,but I must anyway.
People have been telling me that I've been too intense on the forum.
Also,I sense in myself this annoyance sometimes when I go through the forum.
I was aware the whole time that it comes from a need for some control and stability.
But until now I didn't realize the extent.
Chatai ani mazkir hayom...

As I work with rav shlachter on trying to let go of my various controls and "securities",I find myself desperate at times for any form of security.
My desire for an emotional connection with a woman is stronger than it has been in a long time.
And this desperation showed itself on the forum,too.
As this is one of my biggest places of security,I sometimes hold on too much.
I find myself spending an abnormal amount of time on the forum,and sensing any "controls" on the forum very acutely.
And I have responded in kind.I have so strongly wanted to ensure this place of security that I have been too strong minded and even confrontational at times,all to feel secure.
I so badly want to be sure that I am headed in the right direction that I have pushed my shitta too strongly at times,just to feel that my path is correct for me.
As I sensed this,I tried taking a step back,but I found leaving this place of security a little too difficult.
So from now on,I will try to let go of this need to control and hear people out more,without feeling too threatened.
Alas,Rome was not built in a day,but I shall try my hardest.

My love to all
-Uri

Welcome schmelcome.............................ok, welcome back Uri!

Recently I've been feeling a good bit of anxiety and depression,something which for a while dissappeared.
I've been thinking alot about what rav shlachter said:a person cannot handle being a place with neither control or trust.That's how ive been feeling lately.Ive been working on letting go of control alot,and trust takes a bit to build,so right now im sort of hanging in thin air.
Maybe meanwhile,i could try for some control...though im not sure exactly how to do that anymore...
I just feel tired and worn out.
Life is so big and scary sometimes.
What can I do to assuage my fears?
Hashem!!

"I"
Am not a Rebbe

"I" am not a talmid

To be a talmid of RebbRebBer=DOV

One must surrender the "I"

If you want to understand that in un-dovish see email #670 by kanesher

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"I"
Am not a Rebbe

"I" am not a talmid

To be a talmid of RebbRebBer=DOV

One must surrender the "I"

If you want to understand that in un-dovish see email #670 by kanesher

bard_chev