:'(
where are you guys?
i feel so alone  :-[

me too.  :'(
It seems u also dissapeared . Y  am I the only one on now?

:'( :'( :'(

It seems that everyone is so sad, so Im crying along to be part of the group. Misery loves company they say, so here I am! Let me introduce myself; my name is Miss Ery!

Smile kids, life really is a good place to be visiting. Trust me, Ive been there, done that and wallowed in it for too long too. Force yourselves to notice the sunshine, the fall leaves (okay, I admit thats a challenge in a city without green Trying!). Take a walk and notice the gurgling baby in his stroller, the school kids laughing and running home to play. Notice life, everyday, 'boring' life. Notice the colors, how many different shades of green and blue the world is made up of.
You are the REASON for that picture. You are a kaleidascope of all those colors and hues.
"Bishvil li nivra haolam" Hashem doesnt make mistakes. And He doesnt create worlds for second class citizens.
There is kedusha even in your falls because you are crying your eyes out each time, begging to be tahor. Even falling can bring you closer to Hashem. How much more so NOT falling!

Picnic in the park kids! Lets go!

I know mom. Seems as if you're a mind reader. I was saying the same thing today to a friend of mine. I think we've lost sight of the simple joys in life. I for one, luv every moment. All the difficult moments pay off, when I can rest for a moment and just experience life itself. What a gift. 

Just one problem.
It's actually dark now.
And no kids are out playing.
and everyone else on this side of the planet is sleeping peacefully
_{and I'm not}

Perfect time to close your eyes, and picture the park!

Uri,

how you doing this mornin?
im sure last night was really hard for you and i know that its an ongoing and constant struggle for you.
i think youre doing an amazing job, of course, with Hashem's help.
you got some really good responses and I don't have what to add.

and I'm totally not joining this crying fest!
I think I'm teared out for a bit!
ok, I could prob get back into some tears pretty easily...
But, I am so here with you guys!

Mom,

picnic in the park?!!
which one?!!

Not crying. Just sulking.
Picnic R we having one ,or are we supposed to picture it ?

Hmmmm, no park next to Kever Rochel thats for sure...
Guard, where do you suggest?

tRyInG, of course its real! Werent you at Letakains engagement party? I thought I saw you there....

ok. Getting exciting. What do we need to prepare mom?
Struggle , pls bring a pen and take down the grocery list. Urrriii! Wake up!  WE'RE ALMOST LEAVING!

Sleepy heads get left behind.

Guys, bring the frizbee, and Uri, get that guitar tuned pronto quick!

i am having a terrible,horrible,no-good,very bad day

isn't that exactly why a picnic would be a great idea?
we could always just cry together...

Uri wrote on 14 Oct 2009 10:03:


Im so sorry.
Think green trees and Uri's songs

ok i cant take it anymore red line shmed line
sorry guys

All of us here,or at least most of here, struggle greatly with depression.
We are depressed that we are depressed.
And we are depressed that we are in this cycle of depression.

Firstly,I would like to clarify a major misconception.

Many think that we are depressed cause we are sinning.
Our neshama is depressed.Therefore we are depressed.

This is not true.
I strive to serve Hashem as much as I can (for the most part)
I still suffer greatly from depression.

Depression can come from several reasons:

1)Chemical imbalance-This happens.Some people are just biologically prone to be depressed.
2)Emotional discontent-Lack of feeling of security and the occurrence of bad circumstances.

There are obviously more reasons,but these are two major ones that I think are the basic reasons for depression for people like us here at the forum.

We are not to blame for our depression!
We are not bad people!
We do not "deserve to be depressed"!

Depression is not something to fight.
It is something to heal.
If it is chemical imbalance,medicine helps greatly for this.
We can accept what Hashem gives us with love.
He gives us happiness soemtimes,and He makes us depressed sometimes.
Reb Tzadok says that this is to be mechaper avonos.
Because as we all know,depression is like hell sometimes.
So Hashem thank You!

More often,it is discontent inside of us.
All of us here have this.
That's why we're here,isn't it.
This is something we are working on.
It takes time.
It will be healed.
Do not worry.

So when you are depressed,don't say to yourself:
"O man!Why can't I just be happy?!"
This is where Hashem put us right now.

Thank you Hashem for making me depressed today!If You decide that I should be depressed,then I'm happy with it!

(Notice the irony in that statement?)

(Irony?Or the solution?)

Don't say:
"O man!My davening now will be weak anyway.Any mitzva I do will be weak.I might as well not do it."
Wrong!
Hashem wants us to give Him what we have.
If all we could do is learn 10 minutes,then that is perfect!
Not ok.
Perfect!
He put us here,depression and all.
Don't beat yourself up.
Give Him what you got.
It's all that He asks for