In this book that I read and am re-reading by a sexual addiction therapist called "First Day of the Rest of My Life",this woman goes about a tremendous life-changing day-at an amusement park.
Basically,we have gotten to this point because we live lives of fear and attempts to control the fear.Porn is a means of "security" from our fears.
But really our fears are illusions caused by insecurity.
Bekitzur it is one big cycle of uch!
This woman began her recovery by facing a big fear of hers,one which she clearly had no control over.
Roller coasters.
On the roller coaster she just stopped worrying and let her fears be experienced.
And she realized that she could make it,and there's nothing to be afraid of.
Today I went with my brothers to an amusement park.
I went on the biggest roller coaster and got in the front seat(scariest place),and I just took a deep breath and let go.That's it.I realized there's no point buggin out and mentally trying to gain control of the situation.I just put my faith in G-d and let Him take over.
It was beautiful and so freeing,my friends.
I felt a weight off my chest,and I couldn't stop smiling
And then I went on again and again but this time I barely had any fear even to begin with.
I had conquered the roller coaster.
With G-d's help,I hope to implement this into every part of my life and be able to just live.
Live without anxieties.
Life without fear.
With feeling the need to "control the situation".
Let the world be.
Let us just do the little jobs that are set for us.
Geshmack