I guess I'm just venting or looking for some friendly words.
I've made it to 65 days!
For Rosh Chodesh, I decided to up the stakes and this has my Y"H stepping up his game too.
I decided that I'm going to stop all fantasizing but this seems to only have made them more vivid.
I feel like I'm getting closer to falling than before.
Some times it seems like I never even had a problem, and other times I'm so close to falling.
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