Two years that's phenomenal.
If your looking for some chizuk, you may want to re-read a post that you wrote just around this time, two years ago:
Chasdei Avos wrote on 22 Sep 2008 20:43:
WOW, do I have chills right now. I just read this blog from start to finish and to say it is giving me chizuk is a huge understatement. I am flying high emotionally. This is the best preperation for the Yomim Noraim, a time when all of us are trying extra hard to succeed. I am no prophet, but I can say with certainty that Hakadosh Baruch Hu is looking down at everyone on this sight and kvelling with unbelievable simcha and nachas. All we ever try to do is the ratzon Hashem, and right now, right here, on this websight, you guys are smashing the samech mem (evil inclination) to pieces and spreading the glory of Hashem's malchus in the world, precisely the point of Rosh Hashana. Thank you and let this be the reason you are all written in the book of Bracha, simcha, Parnassa, and all good things.
I have set a goal of going streight from Rosh Chodesh Elul until after Yom Kippur without ...
Jack: Your kabballa is giving me the strength (I hope) to succeed. There is nothing harder than seeing all the junk in the street. That is the hardest thing for me. I thank Hashem that I do not work in Manhattan, as I find that to be the killer.
Hatzlacha Rabba.
Chasdei Avos
As you noted then and what is still true today, reading through the posts is one of the best sorts of chizuk. Moreover, while you've been on for two years, it appears that you have not posted that often (which could be because you have limited internet access). If you do have the time, another source of chizuk is giving others on the site chizuk. I am sure that alot of people starting out here would find comfort from you that they can succeed in gaining some control in this area, and someone like you who has been clean (or relatively clean) for two years can certainly give that over. Good luck and hatzlacha rabba.
