I must say that,thank G-d,the vacation worked out well
I was planning on writing some insights that I made before the forum went down; it's not a big problem,now I've had time also to think about how I'll write those insights.
Almost 2 weeks ago I went on a trip together with my class mates for study purposes. We were out almost all day walking and sighseeing; came home dead tired. Yes,we had Internet access,but since all I was thinking of was to put some new,clean clothes on and go to sleep for an hour or two,I just sat myself to the computer to check my mail and messages and that was enough. And it felt really good,to just walk away because I didn't have anything else to do on the computer other than check my messages and write some replies.
Also,being with my mates almost all the time,it gave me a taste of real connection to people. I liked it. Really much,so much,that when I was back home again,in front of my computer,I was missing that connection an awful lot.
I remember when walking around in a neighborhood,one of us realized that the area we were walking through was a bit dubious and pointed it out to me. I said "Wow,really? I didn't even think about it. If you wouldn't have told me,I would just have walked past here without even thinking about it." Back home,I wondered,why wouldn't I have noticed? I don't have an answer. I think that I was so busy with the excitement of seeing a new place,with being with my mates...my heart was full and occupied and there just wasn't any other space available. I remember this shiur by Rabbi Lawrence Kelemen,saying that when the heart is busy than the eyes stop seeing,because the eyes are connected to the heart.
I'm not sure if I'm right or not. I just want to share this with you. That I'll try to find new projects and things to do and to get out and meet with people. To connect for real with Hashem and this wonderful world He has given us.
All the best to you guys,you are the best