I keep finding myself in a viscious circle and I try and let go of it but I'm having trouble:
1) My job is ending is less than a month and I don't have anything else lined up, I'm seeing if some people can take me on and I will find out in the next couple of days and it I'm tense and nervous...
2) (subcontiously) I'm tense and nervous = I'm more sensitive to acting out, I feel the urge all the time, i just want to escape it all...
3) but that is what got me into this mess in the 1st place, i dont concentrate on my work and i escape... i cant do that anymore...
4) but I cant stop, how will I ever hold down a job and get some steady parnosoh...
5) need to act out...
6) cant...
7) aaagggghhh!!!!
Just sharing what's in my head....