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Tried-Trying-Will Try 19 Mar 2010 11:12 #58940

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I just fell...

I don't like it...
As things were happening, I spoke to G-d -asked him to take this whole thing away from me.... I wanted to stop it....

I don't know what to do.... I hope this doesn't happen too often...

I'm just gonna move on with my day...

R' Volbe once wrote that having a social life and keeping busy helps take these stuff away....

I am definitely working on those.... Hope I heal soon....
Please Pray for me...

Peace and Love to all....
May we all merit Holiness and fulfillment....

I wana be good, don't wana fall
But it feels like I keep hitting a brick wall

Please take this away, I don't want to stray
I wana just keep all bad things far from bay

I feel so so lost, when will this all end?
Please Please Please I need a good friend..

I wana try my best, I hope I am
but I never know what you really demand

(a lot of what I write doesn't resonate with most of you
Not much I can do...
I consider this my personal diary...
I think it helps me...)

Peace and love to all my holy Brothers...

(P.s. I think I'm done with the thread "Messed up image of Hashem", that is not my real issue...)
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Re: Trying -Trying -123 19 Mar 2010 13:24 #58960

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Knowing of your feelings of pain towards HKBH, I am so so impressed that you turned to Him in your moment of weakness. Realize that this is growth and hold on to that!

I see that you are really giving the yh a hard time today! Not only did the fall lead you to Hashem, but his real goal is not so much the fall itself, but your reaction afterwards. You got it all wrong from mr yh perspective! You were mean to wallow in self pity over the fall, to get depressed and pull away from Hashem!
WOW! You ended up giving the yh a few seconds, but gave Hashem infinite nachas.

Keep Up the Good Work and wishes for a great shabbos
Hashem is addicted to you! Feel His hugs!"Sheva yipol tzaddik VKUM"
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Re: Trying -Trying -123 19 Mar 2010 13:56 #58966

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Thanks

I don't know why or how...

But it seems that I am not a constant, I fluctuate...
I see now more clear the wisdom of trying to let go... It is a way for the natural ups to come in....

(although I still think that it is not always good for me or even possible to let go.... As my pseudonym indicates I just Try... Period)

I kind of got past my fall pretty quickly....
I will simply try for it not to happen again...

I find it kind of weird that I was able to connect with Hashem as I was falling....

Nu... I don't know that it is always possible to understand everything....

Have fun friends!!!
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Re: Trying -Trying -123 19 Mar 2010 19:22 #59021

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Sometimes its not enough to ask Hashem. Just give me a second to explain. Theres a concept of Hishtadlus and 'Ein Somchin Al Haneis'. We NEED to ask Hashem to help us but we need to show our real Ratzon through our actions. Its like if I sat here and asked Hashem to help me get a 100 on a test without studying. Trying123, youd think I'm crazy (am I right?). First ask then do then ask again. Next time you ask Hashem, do something to prove that you really want this. You know you can just use the Ratzon you have to get rid of this towards that. If you can use it to ask Hashem, you can surely do it to do some Hishtadlus.

Have a great Shabbos.

-Yiddle
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Re: Trying -Trying -123 20 Mar 2010 17:36 #59025

Hey Trying,

Guard says that God values our efforts and that ultimate success or failure is in his hands. "Man proposes, heaven disposes." (If I remember correctly.)

Nothing great is achieved overnight, and with something as difficult as Shimras Einayim (dodgy spelling I think), it takes a whole lifetime. Therefore, don't be downcast. Instead, use every fall as an opportunity to evaluate what you could do better next time in order to AVOID repeating the same mistake.

We all fall Trying, at some point or another. What pleases God is seeing us pick ourselves up and start climbing back up to greater heights.

KUTGW and keep on trucking.

TC,

DL

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Re: Trying -Trying -123 21 Mar 2010 01:33 #59038

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Yiddle2 wrote on 19 Mar 2010 19:22:

Sometimes its not enough to ask Hashem. Just give me a second to explain. Theres a concept of Hishtadlus and 'Ein Somchin Al Haneis'. We NEED to ask Hashem to help us but we need to show our real Ratzon through our actions. Its like if I sat here and asked Hashem to help me get a 100 on a test without studying. Trying123, youd think I'm crazy (am I right?). First ask then do then ask again. Next time you ask Hashem, do something to prove that you really want this. You know you can just use the Ratzon you have to get rid of this towards that. If you can use it to ask Hashem, you can surely do it to do some Hishtadlus.

Have a great Shabbos.

-Yiddle


R' Yiddle,

Thanks for taking the time, interest....

I've come to realize that not everything everyone says will resonate with me.... But we are all very different...

I believe I gave it a fair shot, I honestly wanted to stop and pulled away.... but didn't win....

Lets agree to disagree.... Please keep on posting (even to me... )

Waiting to hear more form you (although we'll most likely disagree on many issues.....)
So what.... to Gehenim with our differnces......

Peace and Love Holy Bro....
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Re: Tried-Trying-Will Try 21 Mar 2010 01:34 #59039

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7Up wrote on 19 Mar 2010 13:24:

Knowing of your feelings of pain towards HKBH, I am so so impressed that you turned to Him in your moment of weakness. Realize that this is growth and hold on to that!

I see that you are really giving the yh a hard time today! Not only did the fall lead you to Hashem, but his real goal is not so much the fall itself, but your reaction afterwards. You got it all wrong from mr yh perspective! You were mean to wallow in self pity over the fall, to get depressed and pull away from Hashem!
WOW! You ended up giving the yh a few seconds, but gave Hashem infinite nachas.

Keep Up the Good Work and wishes for a great shabbos



THANK YOU!!!





DesertLion wrote on 20 Mar 2010 17:36:

Hey Trying,

Guard says that God values our efforts and that ultimate success or failure is in his hands. "Man proposes, heaven disposes." (If I remember correctly.)

Nothing great is achieved overnight, and with something as difficult as Shimras Einayim (dodgy spelling I think), it takes a whole lifetime. Therefore, don't be downcast. Instead, use every fall as an opportunity to evaluate what you could do better next time in order to AVOID repeating the same mistake.

We all fall Trying, at some point or another. What pleases God is seeing us pick ourselves up and start climbing back up to greater heights.

KUTGW and keep on trucking.

TC,

DL








Thumbs up Brother ....
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Re: Trying -Trying -123 21 Mar 2010 01:44 #59040

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Tried-123 wrote on 21 Mar 2010 01:33:

Yiddle2 wrote on 19 Mar 2010 19:22:

Sometimes its not enough to ask Hashem. Just give me a second to explain. Theres a concept of Hishtadlus and 'Ein Somchin Al Haneis'. We NEED to ask Hashem to help us but we need to show our real Ratzon through our actions. Its like if I sat here and asked Hashem to help me get a 100 on a test without studying. Trying123, youd think I'm crazy (am I right?). First ask then do then ask again. Next time you ask Hashem, do something to prove that you really want this. You know you can just use the Ratzon you have to get rid of this towards that. If you can use it to ask Hashem, you can surely do it to do some Hishtadlus.

Have a great Shabbos.

-Yiddle


OK so exactly what do you disagree on......

R' Yiddle,

Thanks for taking the time, interest....

I've come to realize that not everything everyone says will resonate with me.... But we are all very different...

I believe I gave it a fair shot, I honestly wanted to stop and pulled away.... but didn't win....

Lets agree to disagree.... Please keep on posting (even to me... )

Waiting to hear more form you (although we'll most likely disagree on many issues.....)
So what.... to Gehenim with our differnces......

Peace and Love Holy Bro....
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Re: Tried-Trying-Will Try 21 Mar 2010 08:14 #59054

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I am hereby trying out -blocking news sites...

I hope to fill my time more constructively....

Success to us all
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Re: Tried-Trying-Will Try 21 Mar 2010 15:29 #59091

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wow!!!

acorns also fall!

the only difference is when they are lying in the muck - and completely falling apart - they make a decision to overcome the obstacles in their path and become an OAK tree!

are you ready to become an oak tree.

you can do it!

Dov InIsrael
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Re: Tried-Trying-Will Try 21 Mar 2010 15:35 #59094

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DovInIsrael wrote on 21 Mar 2010 15:29:

wow!!!

acorns also fall!

the only difference is when they are lying in the muck - and completely falling apart - they make a decision to overcome the obstacles in their path and become an OAK tree!

are you ready to become an oak tree.

you can do it!

Dov InIsrael



I never did well with Grand aspirations....

I am a pushiter Yid TRYING to move forward and create a life for myself.....

But I love all of you for your input....

Peace and Love....
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Re: Tried-Trying-Will Try 21 Mar 2010 15:39 #59096

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LOL!

but those ARE grand aspirations!

the path of D'vakas...the road to HaShem.

and becoming a HUMAN - and not a robot!

this is the first law of farming...

what you plant is what you get!



UR2ingGR8
(you are doign great! )

Dovinisrael
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Re: Tried-Trying-Will Try 21 Mar 2010 15:45 #59097

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DovInIsrael wrote on 21 Mar 2010 15:39:

LOL!

but those ARE grand aspirations!

Dovinisrael


Ye but I do not look into the future and say I am going to be this mighty tree...

I will simply TRY put in reasonable effort.... and leave the rest to G-d...

I don't want to be anything mighty... Just Normal...
Is that grand....?

I hope not....
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Re: Tried-Trying-Will Try 21 Mar 2010 19:35 #59121

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Tried-123 wrote on 21 Mar 2010 15:35:

DovInIsrael wrote on 21 Mar 2010 15:29:

wow!!!

acorns also fall!

the only difference is when they are lying in the muck - and completely falling apart - they make a decision to overcome the obstacles in their path and become an OAK tree!

are you ready to become an oak tree.

you can do it!

Dov InIsrael



I never did well with Grand aspirations....

I am a pushiter Yid TRYING to move forward and create a life for myself.....

But I love all of you for your input....

Peace and Love....



OK, don't be a tree, be a bush! :D

A bush can withstand ill winds better than a tall tree. :-*

(This is what I remember from elementary school. Bushes can grow further up on the mountainside. : )
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