Dear DJ,
I think the Y"H himself is causing you to ask such questions.
After all, if you get all worked up about it, one way or another,
who knows where that may lead.
I have not seen Yosef's posts yet,
but I think you are both normal.
Hopefully, you"ll be able to continue on the path you're on
and keeping your eyes and ears open,
well, to the right things anyway,
you'll be a-ok.
If the time comes and you feel like the
"12 steps or any other helpful steps"
will be of good use to your cause,
then you are aware that they exist
and can be used to your benefit.
kol tuv