Hello net
Lets get this cleared up. you say you feel like cra*p. Now not trying to be cynical, how do you know what cr*p feels like?
You might feel like a diamond that fell into a pile of cr*p . but you still are a diamond. Wash yourself off, polish up your act and you are a diamond.
The greatest weapon that the evil wicked menuval has is that he convinces us that we can't change. There are no magic potions. it's work, but you will get stronger every day.
Today is my 40th day that I am clean. Beleive me holy brother net, I in my wildest dreams couldn't imagine being at 40 days. A good streak for me was a week. But holy tzaddik look at all the tzaddikim on this forum! look at phillip, ben, ykv scwrtz, these people HUBBIN GERISIN FUN ZICH lit. "tore from themselves".
Please don’t let these Holy moments of hirhur teshuva pass by. Jump in to the forum. Come along for the ride, there are such good people here!
chazak chazak !!!!
bardichev