MN, i feel your pain 1000% .
i am about to be on my own soon as well , the insane thought of reconnecting myself to the (porn)net keeps popping into my head. i don't want to do it . i know its supid and fake and i'm not even drawn to it especially after bruce's posts . but the thought persists . like an itch . like , of course you know this is what you must do , you can't let this golden opportunity of freedom pass you by . but i don't want it. i'm going to be in costant contact w/ the forum thru it all BEZH" . i think that might be the weakness i've been feeling lately laso . i knew this was coming. H' please help me not to give in to the insanity. this is the first time ,i think ,that i feel it as just that , not even taivah ,,,,,just this itch . insanity.