Sorry about my English, it's not my regular language.
I trining to write my step 1. Its not easy.
I'm 31 years old and I'm in this challenge from my childhood as a 10 years old.
I understand thet my heling is only god because i have a suberity a decade ago when i got married. The period before the married wes a time thet i doven a lot to god thet i could break my addiction to porn and i find my wife. And a lot of reding about faith. I was crying every prayer and learned almost a 2 hours each day.
But after a period of time I forgot it. And returned to porn. I understand that when I am clean and not connected to god, it's harmful to my area. I am hungry at my family and my work partners. I understand that my problem is not porn, porn is my solution that i really don't want.
I was in the 12 step program and i got to some steps alone. The problem was thet i didn't succeed in making it a routine. I'm a lucky guy thet can't live life without god. I wand to start the steps again because i couldn't do it alone. To gether my self apart i must understand they by myself alone it's not going to happen.
Another missing part in my period of sobriety wes the teaching others and helping others.
I hope new i succeed in all the parts of the program.
