Try The Battle of the Generation. See link below in my signature.
Thank you
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Shavua Tov
B"H Day 5(?) (14 days or so without a binge) not really keeping count, I can keep myself pure for the most part. Had intense urges in subconscious waking up stage. Also my mind is probably purging itself of these images now. Going to put this book on my phone and keep it open for when I wake up. Yetzer hara seems to go after me when I'm barely awake and can't remember my own name, let alone all of this stuff. Probably want to put Modeh Ani on the ceiling above my bed and other such prayers. Thankfully my body is beginning to adjust, I don't feel arousal as frequently. I enjoy the new feeling of purity. I want to be pure for my future wife, if my mind wanders to thoughts of such thing I try to close them and also remember I want to stay pure for her
This may just be me, but I'm focused on keeping my living space cleaner and more pure also. I bought new cleaning supplies and am wanting to enjoy more higher or refined pleasurable things such as: A clean and beautiful place to live, peace and serenity, etc. My opinion is that what I consider to be tumah (perhaps not halachically so) e.g., a dirty or bad smelling place can lead to tumah in terms of relapse (and vice versa). That's not halacha but is just my experience. Keeping the space pure seems to help keep from tumah in my body
Much more focused on practical concerns such as tracking expenses and savings
Appear to be speaking in my sleep, voice slightly deeper
Sleeping on side prevents involuntary arousal while asleep, but may need to figure out how to make this more comfortable and easy to sleep for the long haul
Am wanting to see how I can have my mind occupied with Torah while asleep. Have had some limited success doing this. This kind of sleep unfortunately does not seem to last very long without me waking up at current.