future paltiel wrote on 15 Aug 2022 02:21:
Greetings to my fellow GYE brothers.
I have been on Guard Your Eyes for about 2 years, although I haven't posted much about myself.
I am now 123 days clean from P&M bH. Married with children.
My main struggle right now is in the morning. As soon as I wake up I am attacked by a huge amount of lustful fantasies that get more intense by the minute. Thank G-d I don't act out on it. During the day I figured several ways to avoid lusting, but at this time of the day I lack the clarity to decide for myself what is the right thing to do. I do keep a negel vasser by my bed but I usually need a few more minutes to be more awake I order to get up and wash. Getting up and starting g my day right away is not always an option as it can start as early as 4:30-5:00 and would make me loose sleep. I really don't Ike it. It spoils my day by making me feel guilty and tired (my brain gets exhausted from all this turbo-speed fantasizing).
I am open to recieve advice, personal opinions or your experience in the topic mentioned.
Thank you all!
Wow it’s amazing your clean for so long keep it up! Abt your mornings… I used ( still have similar… very horny mornings) I used to think it’s because ur well rested and good mood etc. but I know there’s much more to it… the thoughts you start your day off with is what the day is built on! It’s the foundation for the day… if you wake up and have a thought of today I’m gonna watch my eyes learn geshmakah daven with kavunah etc that’s the way the day goes and if the opposite than cv… that why we say first thinks when we wake up רשית חכמה יראת ה׳… so that is why the y.h. Makes us so crazy in the morning cause if he got u then he basically got u for the day… so my friend please work on the your mornings… I wake up and first thing wash nagel vaser and say מודה אוי… and then start conversation with my wife… which really helped me…but that not gonna work for you at 4 o’clock in the morning… but I’m sure I’ll find away to fix your mornings if you fixed your porn habits bhy ull stop the bad thoughts… הצלחה רבה!!!