as seen in my intro---
Hi, I am TG and I am a P-Aholic and relapser. Since I was a teen I felt an insatiable need to look/watch P ending in Z. Over the years, once I met my wife I got better, usually no Z, with some clean periods, but inevitably still falling after a certain time needing to see the pictures (usually not videos or Z as result). I stumble and fall a lot, sometimes 30 days clean, one time much longer, usually weeks at most. I once told my wife I used to in the past (until college) but it's still with me and I once tried to broach the idea of a struggle with shemiras einayim...to which she nearly left me. Hence, the struggle is my own and can't be given to her. I love my wife with all of my as well as my children and this site I hope can help me. I try to be a great husband and father, and there's no chisaron between me and my wife, I feel very taken care of in all aspects by her and think she's the most beautiful woman. This happens to be a beast inside me, that needs to be satiated, needs to see the things when it wants and makes me fall for a while each time. I hope im not a rash gamer and can still be seen as a good guy who has a very bad evil inside. I give podcasts/shiurim/ am an OT and try to make the world a better place as much as I can, and feel so bad about how evil lives in me. Feel free to chat, as my wife often uses my phone so I can't do emails/whatsapps/texts/calls. Thanks for listening!
